MST is around the corner...

Stress sia... MST is getter nearer and nearer and I still know nothing much about the modules... what can I do??? Need help~!!!

Surpise that Mr Phua who is in charge of ITP called during my Logic Design lecture, he told me that one company at science park that was interested in me... I was pretty suprise about that... cos no one told me that there are such cases where companies looking for you before hand... I wasnt sure about this company's name but seems like dealing with sound... Not too sure about it but will go for the interview when the company call and make an appointment for an interview...

Still no improvement with the gal... I have been thinking... all the while is I have been thinking what she thinks of me... but after chatting with the small geradline... I felt that I have been disturbing her... All the while I knew that I was disturbing her but I dont want to believe so... What geradline told me is that a guy with sincere will touches the gal's heart... let's say... waited for a year before getting together... Actually I wish I would do that but I have no patience at all... cos no improvement with her makes me feel more depressing and giving up...
I was wondering is this "training" needed to go through before get "started"? If that's the case, it seem like I need to waste another year of loneliness...

Seem like it's true that I wont be having anyone this year... Wat can I say... A guy who weak in understanding gals, weak in communicate with gal alone, weak in grabbing the opportunity to tell her the feeling I had for her... I guess I will be a bachelor forever...

What's wrong with me?

Things not right recently... am i giving up so easily or decide to make a change? seem like coward guy looking for better one?

a weakling guy... been trying to talk to her but seem quiet hard to do so... and she always tried to avoid talking to me in front of public... i wonder is she trying avoid me as she sense something not right? if this is the reason, i can stop whatever things i had done... anyway recently had stop messaging her for quiet sometime... really cant find chances or she didnt giving me chances at all... although chances are given to those who aware that is a chance for them... i tried my best and only able to find a few chances but cant grab the opportunity to tell her how i feel towards her... *sign*

is it really hard to express oneself feeling towards the one u like? is chance and opportunity so hard to grab? i feel like life is so miserable... colourless life is getting bored day after day...

Depress~! Depress~! Depress~!

This sem modules seem dont like me alot... I having difficult being friends with them... lol~
so this is my 1st depression... The day before yesterday, I told my lady friend that I will tell the girl what I feel towards her. But things always not going as planned.

What I thought of is telling her after our GEMs lesson ended since both our classes are just beside each other... Usually my lesson ended earlier than hers but yesterday she ended earlier than me... So she went to a bench nearby my lady friend's GEMs class... I purposely went there and "pass by"... then telling her that I suppose to meet my friends at the library but they went off...

Sit down somewhere beside her, she starts to talk alot to me... this is something new to me as she seldom chat with me... think she get to know better with me so can chat more... I hope this will happen oftenly... but i always dont know what to say when talking to her... maybe i afraid that i have said something not right or whatever it is...

I wanted to tell her my feelings towards her but people were walking along the corridoor... cant said that out... plus a stupid guy seated opposite us eating his packet lunch... piss off sia... In the end, fail when my lady friend's lesson ended... This is the 2nd depression...

At night meeting toh toh for a hair cut at kenji there then go for dinner and walk walk aroud town area... we chat about each other relationship case... then while chating with him... I msg her to see if she's free today for a movie show but she said she was booked by her sister so I ask her abt tues and she replied that she booked her parents... so I can sense that she trying to avoid me... hai... this is last depression...

Then filled with depression, I went to watch movie "Death Note" with nic... went to west mall to catch the 11.50pm show... The movie cutted alot comparing to anime and comic... the plot is much different comparing anime and comic which is gd to have this... now need to wait for the part 2 to see how's the story going to end... I can feel that the ending will be much different than the anime and comic...

hope that she willing to come out with me alone some days sooner or later but MST and other stuffs are really near soon... I dont think there will be a chance to do that... maybe I should tell her my feelings for her when i have the chance to be with her alone... at least iIcan clear my heart if she dont want to accept it.... things around me have been too stressful... regardless of studies or my extra feeling... none of the doubt is cleared... is she my happiness???

I like this day!

After GEMS lesson on yesterday, manage to go out with her to collect her stuff at Forums... I ended my lesson early so I wait for her at the Mac, sit down and let the time pass by... The n when she ended her lesson and we take bus to there... Talk quiet alot as we seldom chat at all... only through sms for awhile... but to my suprise, she spoke alot as I thought what should I chat with her later.... After she had collected her stuff, she wanted to head back home to watch her video as she had missed the last few tv shows since she working evening part time at clinic.

I know that she will be collecting her stuff before hand... As one of my friend told me that she suppose to go along with her but she forgot that she need to company her bf after lesson ended. So she had to go there alone and I take this chance by sms her during lesson asking if I can tag along or not since I have nothing to do (this is an excuse)... And she agreed...

At night, meet my primary sch friend, Jian Hao, for a photo shoot at Vivo City... Quiet a nice place but still got many shops haven open yet... Nice scenery as the building facing the sea... Good for couple... Hope to go there with her alone.... hahaha....